Today

Today for the first time ever, I felt like choosing chemo/radiation. I was having the most pitiful pity party ever. Today every single piece of green food tasted like grass, every piece fruit made me nauseous and juicing made me gag. The thought of doing this forever, made me want to cry! The truth is I'm going to want a slice of birthday cake, I'm going want to dine at fine restaurant for ladies night, and I love fruit cobblers in the summer. Today chemo felt like taking an easier road, I'll be sick for a few months but I can have what I want. In case you didn't know, the evil one is real. He appeals to the flesh. He kicks you when you're down. He knows he's defeated but he tries anyway. I didn't give in to this temptation. I wanted to. I entertained it longer than I should have. I felt sorry for myself (cue the violins)! The Lord is my Shepard and I shall not want...........

I'm thankful for discernment. I'm thankful for the Shepard that watches over me. I'm thankful God's strength is perfected in my weakness.