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Hello, My name is Ester. I absolutley adore Jesus! He is the center of my life. I am nothing without him. He has allowed a dream of mine to come true. I've always wanted a little boutique. I've been praying for the right time, the time is now! I am the mother of 3. I love my children, they keep life so exciting. I homeschool and I have one in traditional school. I love to craft, it could be a full time job. I love it that much. I like sewing, baking, bow- making, and all things family! I am married to my highschool sweetheart, you can read about that on my other blog. www.loveinmyhouse.blogspot.com.

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Monday, November 18, 2013

What people don't understand......

There are a few things that I would love for my well meaning family and friends to understand about this complicated situation of a relationship (or lack of one) that I have.  First, I am doing the best I can do.  Secondly, please don't call, text, and email me every time "he" updates his FB or when you see "him" in public.  That does not make the situation any easier.  Yes, I assure you that I have prayed, fasted, prayed some more.  I am very acquainted with ALL the marriage scriptures ( I've committed a few to memory)!!! I am awfully aware of my marital shortcomings.  Yes, I could have listened more, yelled less, cleaned more, be in the moment, and took care of "those" other martial things more often.  Back to the first point, I am doing the best I can. 
Now, to the other end of the spectrum.  No, I don't hate "him".  I married him.  No, I don't want to drive by.  No, I don't stalk his FB. I don't want to go to his job.  He needs his job to care for his children.  I don't want to damage his car.  He needs the car to go to work to care for his children. I don't have time for that!!! The best thing I can do is PRAY for him.  I will not deny him access to our children, a hot meal, and a good conversation.  He is welcome to any event that involves, the children.  I will not get out of character, I am the one that has Christ.  I will continue to seek God's face on "his" behalf.  I truly pray that God will do a supernatural work in his life.  I pray that God will use this as a part of his testimony.  I pray that he wakes up before it's to late.
Now if you really want to help me, here is what you can do:  Prayer is always welcomed!!! I get lonely sometimes and would love adult conversation.  I get tired of cooking, dinner is always nice. Anything that could make my load lighter (laundry, dishes, the bathroom).  It is the simple things that matter the most.  My best gifts included toilet paper, washing powder, soap, garbage bags and etc.  Carrying this load is not easy as it seems.  I love you all, seriously I do.  Right now I have focus on my kiddos, my home and most importantly my relationship with my Heavenly Father!!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Missing my blog!!!

I really want to be a great mom blogger.  I really enjoy it so much.  However, I feel really bad when I don't have a picture to share.  My phone takes horrible pictures.  Secondly, I barely have time to go potty.  I don't know when to sit down and write.  Lastly, I want to be transparent.  Sometimes though I think I would scare people away if they truly knew what was going on with me and my family.

Here are a few updates:
1. I put my oldest daughter in public school about a month ago. I hate it, middle school is sucking the life out of our family.  Our every waking moment seems to revolve around something school related.  I am in prayer about my decision, I think I missed God on this one.

2. We moved into a new house.  I love this little house. (Seriously little house)  It has the cutest kitchen window.

3. I have been prayerfully considering working full time.  However,it does not excite me, I love being home (part time) and taking care of my family.

4. The Mr. is testing every ounce of my salvation (seriously)!! He is living away from us.  Right now I am just praying that God will make himself known to the Mr. in an intimate way.  It makes me sad thinking about him not experiencing the Glory of God.   I care less about him being a great father, husband, friend and etc.  I really care that he gets himself in the will of God.  He needs salvation.

5. Last but not least, God is still God!!! He sits on a thrown.  We are victorious in every way.  This includes times of trials, test, and transition.  I love God so very much.  He loves me more that I love me (that's a lot).  He has made so many provisions for  my children and I.  I am so very thankful for HIM.