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Hello, My name is Ester. I absolutley adore Jesus! He is the center of my life. I am nothing without him. He has allowed a dream of mine to come true. I've always wanted a little boutique. I've been praying for the right time, the time is now! I am the mother of 3. I love my children, they keep life so exciting. I homeschool and I have one in traditional school. I love to craft, it could be a full time job. I love it that much. I like sewing, baking, bow- making, and all things family! I am married to my highschool sweetheart, you can read about that on my other blog. www.loveinmyhouse.blogspot.com.

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Monday, November 18, 2013

What people don't understand......

There are a few things that I would love for my well meaning family and friends to understand about this complicated situation of a relationship (or lack of one) that I have.  First, I am doing the best I can do.  Secondly, please don't call, text, and email me every time "he" updates his FB or when you see "him" in public.  That does not make the situation any easier.  Yes, I assure you that I have prayed, fasted, prayed some more.  I am very acquainted with ALL the marriage scriptures ( I've committed a few to memory)!!! I am awfully aware of my marital shortcomings.  Yes, I could have listened more, yelled less, cleaned more, be in the moment, and took care of "those" other martial things more often.  Back to the first point, I am doing the best I can. 
Now, to the other end of the spectrum.  No, I don't hate "him".  I married him.  No, I don't want to drive by.  No, I don't stalk his FB. I don't want to go to his job.  He needs his job to care for his children.  I don't want to damage his car.  He needs the car to go to work to care for his children. I don't have time for that!!! The best thing I can do is PRAY for him.  I will not deny him access to our children, a hot meal, and a good conversation.  He is welcome to any event that involves, the children.  I will not get out of character, I am the one that has Christ.  I will continue to seek God's face on "his" behalf.  I truly pray that God will do a supernatural work in his life.  I pray that God will use this as a part of his testimony.  I pray that he wakes up before it's to late.
Now if you really want to help me, here is what you can do:  Prayer is always welcomed!!! I get lonely sometimes and would love adult conversation.  I get tired of cooking, dinner is always nice. Anything that could make my load lighter (laundry, dishes, the bathroom).  It is the simple things that matter the most.  My best gifts included toilet paper, washing powder, soap, garbage bags and etc.  Carrying this load is not easy as it seems.  I love you all, seriously I do.  Right now I have focus on my kiddos, my home and most importantly my relationship with my Heavenly Father!!

1 comment:

  1. Each day will enlighten you a little more, you sound like you are at a very low point, but your strength shines and your faithfulness to Our Father is glowing! God bless you sweet sister in Christ!