What's going down in the Mound???

Dear sweet people, 

I'm still alive and well.  I've needed some time to process every possible emotion known to man. I had no idea that some of these emotions exist.  I'm still having more good days than bad. I'm so thankful for that. Since, the surgery I'm having some very unusual pain. Most days I can't explain what's hurting or how it's hurting.  I just know it's pain. I have more decisions on the horizon. The answers are not easier or clearer even at the thought of death.  Ok, enough of that.....

 I can't tell you how carefully The Lord put everything together. I'm truly amazed at His goodness. I moved to this neighborhood to join a group of people serving in a way that I felt called to serve. Never in a million years would I've thought The Lord would call me to leave my home and move to a place that scared me. I don't know how I thought I could serve over seas but not serve the least of these in my own city. God is continuing to transform my heart everyday. This Sunday we hosted our house church because some of our leaders were out of town. We enjoyed every second of it.

We had a good time of fellowship, worship and studying God's word. 

The Mr. and I decided this should be a fun filled week because of some changes in my care. The changes will be more intense than they already are. I'm so glad he and I are able to look pass our differences to make this week special for the kiddos. Spending time with him as a family is always bittersweet. 

This is us at the zoo Sunday night. The zoo has a special night for members only and it's always a fun time.  The Mr. came over two days in a row to help me with things around the house. Our relationship is so challenging but comforting in a familiar type way. There is no denying some things he just "gets" because we're 15 years in to this! Sigh.

We have a few other special things planned this week, the fair is one of them. I'm praying God will give me strength to endure and enjoy this week. I'm praying that the pain will be managed well so this week will be memorable for my babies.

I'm so thankful that God hasn't left me. I'm thankful for meals that I don't have to cook. I'm thankful that I'm getting better at recognizing how I feel.