Miss Perfect

Let me tell you ladies, Bible study has been so awesome!!!! We're reading through a study called, Miss Perfect!!! The lady leading us in this study is dynamic. The Lord is truly leading her as she leads us. I didn't think this book would be for me ( I already know I'm not perfect) but I was so wrong!! This book is for ladies everywhere.  Please order this study from High Point Church Memphis. This study dispels the myth of Miss Perfect! Ladies, she doesn't exist! Here is a recipe of faith that was given on our second day of the study:

I sure hope y'all can read this! It's so good.

In other news, we celebrated "Mr's" birthday today.  He wanted brownies and buttered pecan ice cream,yummy! 

Sidenote- I'm the party queen ( not tooting my own horn) but seriously, I LOVE parties! How in the world did I only have 2, yes 2 birthday candles in my entire house? It felt like the world stopped for just a second! 

Opening up!

Today the weather was very nice! It's making me long for spring even more. After church we went to the park for lunch. The sun does a body good! 

This is my girl, Danny (the deacon), and my boy climbing the best tree! This day was so needed.

I recently read through some previous post, why didn't someone mention all the typos? Most of the time I'm blogging from my phone and on the go. I'm also the grammar police but I have certainly been all over the place on this blog!! Don't stone me.

Now for what's really on my heart. Recently I've been opening up to a few people about what's going on in my life, marriage and etc. Let me tell you, it's not easy!!! The other part is I usually get the worst response from other believers. I can't tell you how friendships and relationships have changed ( a little and a lot) once people know. It's not okay with them that I have story that I'm being redeemed from. I'm never really sure how to respond to their response. What's going through my head: are they treating me like this because they don't know, were they taught this, did they read it, do they have scriptures they'll use to justify this? It leaves me so confused. I'm sure it's awkward for them and definitely for me. I'm not the first person to struggle, fight, crawl, slide, pray, pray and pray her way through a marriage that's not even holding on by threads. I'm not less of a person, I still hear God's voice, I'm still accountable, trust worthy, and capable. No, I don't want sit in a corner and not be involved. Life is happening now! I want to pull up my boot straps and keep marching forward! My eyes are fixed on Jesus.

Orange Mound, TN

This group of people stole my heart and ran with it! These are some of the leaders and families of our house church. These are a few of the families The Lord is allowing me to serve. Prayerfully we will soon be moving into this neighborhood to live, work and share the gospel. It's crazy to me how hanging with them for just a few months has completely change me for the better. It's humbling! It brings me to the feet of the cross often, especially when bad things happen. I pray for them and plead Christ blood over them. They have a part of my heart and I'm glad.

Control, control

Control, control oh how I love the!!!! What  do I hate second to the devil, not feeling in control!!! It goes against my personality. I like to know what's happening and when. I'm a planner and I love being settled. 

Do you want to know what area I'm tested the most? Control.  You would think with a year learning how to trust God more, this would be a piece of cake. Haha. What's even worse is I hate making decisions (oxymoron, I know)!!! I'm in a season of decision that need to be made, moves that need to happen, and a host of other things!  I was up all night!! Tossing, turning and pondering just how God will work it all out. Overwhelmed to say the least!! I do know that God is faithful! My heart knows but my body refuses to listen in the midnight hour. What I learned from my year of trusting is that God listens, he's faithful, he cares, our timing is different and it isn't  easier! I'm still a rookie.

Family word of the year...

Our word should be trust again!!! I'm still learning how to completely trust God in every situation. Let's just say this year provided more than enough opportunities  to trust God. Whew!! 

This year our word is commitment. I'm not sure where this will take us, but I'm preparing my heart. 

I'm already thinking of some areas that God telling me to stay committed. ( Like taking better care of myself)!!! So I started the year with a new do, which is much different from my bun that I wear every day. 

This is me with it all down and free! I even have a little make-up on. I went to the Memphis Grizzlies game the other night. This picture was taken at the game.

So for Christmas I wanted a new piece of art. I fell in love with some art that my friend recently had displayed at the gallery. She made all kinds of trees. My favorite didn't sell and now it's on my wall!! Merry Christmas to me.

I know God is up to something from trust to commitment, this should be interesting!